ok , haven't updated in a few days , Things are going a bit pearshaped. First of all : Catastrophy day : Laptop/webcam/ipod busted all in one night Second : Lots to do ! school/buizz/teaching classes (aarg) Third : Did a lott of posts on my Ipod (the first audio bloggs where coming) then : Ipod broke , no means to transfer them onto the pc / website (mega-aarg). Ironicly the add ons I ordered for my ipod came in the same day i had to ship my ipod out :§. Leaves me frustrated. Cut off from the Podcast/blogg world and stuck with music/radio in the car (am not enjoying this). Enough bitching allready. did have a great weekend. Mett up with some cool people and am starting to realise just how much the social community around me is shifting. It will be a very different birthdayparty next year, i'm guessing. Meanwhile, new years eve is coming closer. Still no plans to celebrate with friends/family. And don't realy know if that is what I want. I'm just not looking forward to getting stuck in some dull restaurant, paying god knows what to sit around with your leggs under the table all night and be boared to bitts. I think the whole new year crap is exagarated to much anyway. Starting november i get all stressed up by the whole thing. Organising it, running around getting people to tag along , have people cancel etc etc. Hate that mucho big time !. Same with Xmass :(. Ok , i have gotten towards the point where i can stand a christmass TREE ,but the whole xmass shopping shit is giving me a major headache allreaddy. I'm not really a holiday season kinda guy. Much to stressy for my taste ! Enough Babble , Mac sent an EMPTY BOX to my house to put my Ipod in so i can return it to the factory. Instead of picking it up right away they'll swing by AGAIN tomorrow to pick it up. Duh-huh .
Hmm, just found the cutest thing on line. I used to have a blog at livejournal remember ? Well , they have this little News Feed you can check into (its also on a webpage) that has every blogg on it that was recently posted. Its a tapestry of entry’s from various bloggers and.. When you start to read trough it it’s like listening to the whispers of the cyber world. Amazing, addictive too 🙂 So many voices, so many thoughts, so many feelings. A complete freedom of the mind in the realm of cyberspace. This is truly something to marvel at sometime. And perhaps half of it is useless banter, it’s still important enough for those people to write it down. And who says your words are so important. Every one of us puts his on values in his own thoughts and into those of the others. As I stand amidst the rolling cloud of cyberspace I cannot but stop and wonder in awe at the fantastic things that happen there every day. Always on the brink of yet another revolution. Check it out http://www.livejournal.com/stats/latest.bml A little taste: How's this for random quotes:”I felt the dagger sink into my back. I could feel the warm blood trickle down my cold back, dripping to the ground. I stood there in shock, almost wanting to know why he had done this to me. The cold seeped into my bones as he stared into my eyes. I saw no emotion on his cold face. How could he do this to me? It was I who helped him when he needed it the most, I who tended to his wounds, and I who gave him shelter when he had none. Now he had betrayed me. I looked into his blue eyes, as cold as ice, and saw nothing." by imouto_ko.
Outside the rain is pouring down. The world looks like its gonna double over on itself and crawl in a corner like a wet blanket. A lot of work awaits me when I get home although I wish a good book, a nice cd and a hot cup of cappuccino would be there instead. Just sit in my favorite Cafe for a bit, watch the people get wet outside. Wouldn't that be nice?
One of my co-workers came up to me yesterday, looked at me and said: "You're a Geek!" … YEEEY! I'm a GEEK! To those oblivious to what a GEEK is, a GEEK is kind of a technocrat who lives his life surrounded by the coolest gadgets and who finds a way of incorporating them into his everyday life. It’s easier to mug a geek using an EMP-gun then a switchblade. So what! I’m a geek and I’m proud of it. Living at technologies cutting edge and handling the gizmo’s as if they where the most normal thing in the world IS my thing. It’s like walking into a tribe of bush people with a mirror sometimes. But still. It’s cool when you're blasé about it. Yesterday Nyana hiked up to her house with her own laptop. I mean YEAY !!! When your GF pads around with her own PC cause she likes it .. It’s damn sexy! Geekdom rocks :).
The autumn outside is slowly giving way. Every fiber in my body senses the growing defeat of falling leaves against the rising up March of the steel swords of winter. As I drove home yesterday evening it pleased me to have another wonderful cd in the player. The ones among you who only know VANGELIS from all time hits like Pulstar and Chariots of Fire are surely missing out something when they have never heard his recent albums. As the dark clouds closed the canopy above me and taillights pierced the murky darkness I crawled deep into my bubble of steel and floated trough the world on the tones of ' EL GRECO ' This cd filled with dark and gloomy tracks wrapped its sounds around me like a warm blanket. As drivers beside me ate up their steering wheels in frustrations I let my mind and thoughts be engulfed by the powerful sounds of Monserat Caballe and the Instrumental virtuoso Himself (Vangelis Pappadoplous). To write about music is like painting an apple. No matter how good you can describe it, there is no way you can taste it. But it was wonderful. Somehow driving makes me very relaxed and with the right music I am engulfed in the world of my own thoughts and feelings for that secluded time when I am driving home. Ever since I started working on this side of the country I have had calmness settle over me in the mornings. In the darkness of the dawning globe, I can let my feelings, impressions, emotions and idea's flow freely. As if life is a chessboard I pick up the peaces of my everyday life and roll them over in my hands, try to see them from every angle and decide where to move them next. Perhaps it is the coming of age; perhaps it is the time of the year. But somehow I feel that, looking back to the turbulent months that lay behind me, I have changed. I have always been this ever-changing chameleon, never quite the same in two places but still. How great is the difference once again. Those who knew me then and there would be surprised to see me here. And I? I find peace with it all because I know I am true to myself no matter who I may appear to be. Life is a shifting duality of shadow and light. And although those close to me think they know me. I can only give them a mysterious smile and think 'you don't have a clue yet…’
The end of the week is slowly drawing closer and a little smile creeps up the corner of my mouth. Somehow I feel all giddy inside just thinking of the fun stuff that once again awaits me. Well, fun stuff might be a big word. I immensely enjoy the simple things, just being around Nyana, spending time together is pure Bliss but when I look at the unexpected ways events have turned out over the last weekend, I cannot help but wonder if its gonna be just as spectacular this time around. The weekend appears to be a completely different part of my life sometimes. During the week Nyana and me work hard and put a lot of effort and energy into our job and the company. But in the weekend its. *Poof*. When I look at the way we live these days I think we can call ourselves very lucky. I mean, most couples our age sit at home with the kids all weekend (and occasionally go to the movies, or to family or something'), don't get me wrong, there is nothing wrong with that. But it would not be 'our thing'. As I wrote a few posts ago: The fun is only just beginning in our life. With no one to look out for but each other and our cat. To each his own truth but I think, for now we can find true happiness in this lifestyle. It’s amazing but sometimes it feels like me and Nyana have only been together for a few weeks. Here is this great girl I get to go out with and have fun with. Little old me gets a night on the town with someone who is not only the love of my life but also my big fun-buddy. 5000 inside jokes, quick repartee’s and spicy comments fly trough the air and not only do I feel completely at ease with her, I also have a blast with her whenever we go out. I should count my lucky stars (and I do) for the good life I lead. Onto the weekend, filled with exiting stories and adventures it is!!!!
Why is it that when silence is closest to me, my thoughts drift off like snow in the wind
Towards fields of placid sorrow in melancholic smiles. Safe is how I feel with its velvet cloack draped around me. And yett… Silence and sorrow go hand in hand and if the pool of tranquility resides amids the dying willows then happyness is the illusion of sound. Or is sadness the echo of silence.